Holidays pass by like the passing of the wind...

It's nearly two months now. Holidays are about to end and so is this year. While this year ends, it ends another chapter. Which means next year is a new chapter. A NEW beginning. Even though I am sad that the holidays are ending, I will stay positive. Anyways, there's always next year's holiday. Well, going to enjoy the last days of holidays. Hope I am in the same class as my good friends next year.

Why would you not try to understand me?

I want to be myself and show everyone my true self and not hide it or put on a mask. But....when I try to, nobody understands and misundertood it....when I try to help them and do my best, they don't even think I'm serious.....It really hurts me to be like this...I really want someone to understand me or TRY to understand me...I hate bottling up all my feelings....

Finally going to post!!! :D

I'm finally going to post something on my blog again! I've been busy lately and when I get onto my laptop I tend to go watch anime or read manga or facebooking so I don't really blog. But now that I got blogger on my phone, I'll often post!~ :3

My dooms day turned out as fun day...O_O" I am in utter shock!

I am in utter shock! O____O" 
Here's the list why i am shocked......

1. I am the time keeper for my inter-house games challenge for the whole of the match from beginning till the end.
2. My pastor did not come....(thanks to me having to stay back)
3. My original piano teacher got sick and couldn't come so a relieve teacher came in and taught me. And i kinda like her. I can understand her much more clearly and her lesson is fun plus the method she uses to teach me how to remember piano stuff were easy to remember and she's patient and the way she teach me how to play the song properly works! I wish she was my teacher....no offence to my original teacher but yeah....i like them both!

And now,i am totally free! Tomorrow i am free and thursday too! yippee!!! But.....on friday, it's DOOMS DAY AGAIN! But this time worse.....it's P.T.M!!! Parents-teachers-meeting! I will be getting my report book back together with either my mum or dad, most probably my mum as she always is the one who goes....cause she says my dad won't really listen and all.....so all i hope for is to get the kinder teacher which is Miss Tay Chew Fern as she is much more nicer and my mum knows her. Cause the other teacher confirm say some bad points about me.....okay maybe miss tay would too but not as much.....Argh!!!! As long as they both are kind and say good stuff i'm fine with either one!!!! I am sooooooooooooooo damn it nervous!!!!! >_<" What if my mum get's angry? Or she scolds me after that? Wait i shouldn't think that way! I should be more positive! Okay....my teacher will say good stuff about me, my mum will not be mad and scold me, my mum will be fine with my report book...anyways, i don't really have to worry about the subjects pass or fail. You know why? It's cause i already told my parents which subjects i passed and failed. I passed 6 out of 9 subjects so i am safe! Phew! I failed 3 subjects.....and all three are my hated subjects! And for a first time ever, i passed my chinese! Yay!!!! But i am still nervous...so PEOPLE OUT THERE, WISH ME GOOD LUCK! THANKS! ^_^

Tomorrow's dooms day....

I haven't done my piano theory homework plus my pastor who asks me to BURN MY COMIC BOOKS OR SELL THEM WHICH I WILL ABSOLUTELY WILL NOT! CAUSE IT'S SOMETHING I LOVE! AND SHE'S SO IRRITATING! I NEVER ASK HER TO COME TO MY HOUSE FOR HER SO-CALLED 'FOLLOW-UPS'! AND SHE STILL COME! I GAVE HER A LOT OF CLUES THAT I DIDN'T WANT HER TO COME, BUT SHE STILL COME! DAMN HER! AND EXCUSE ME! THIS IS MY LIFE TO LEAD NOT HERS TO PLAN! SHE SAYS SHE WANTS ALL MY ATTENTION GO TO GOD!(I'm a christian for your info) BUT EXCUUUUUUSE ME! I HAVE MY OWN WILL AND FEELINGS TOO! AND I CAN'T HAVE MY 100% ATTENTION ON GOD JUST YET! IT TAKES TIME WOMEN(MY PASTOR)! I HAVE BEEN KEEPING THIS FEELINGS BOTTLED UP FOR SO LONG! NOW I AM PUTTING IT ON BLOG! SHE'S TOO MUCH ALREADY! WHY DON'T SHE JUST SAY BYE BYE AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!! I WANT MY NORMAL LIFE BACK!!! MY NORMAL LIFE WHEN SHE DID NOT COME!!!! WHY DON'T SHE JUST.....JUST.....DISAPPEAR TO SOMEWHERE OR GO TO THE PLACE SHE ALWAYS WANTED TO GO? GO HEAVEN YOU DAMN PASTOR!!!! AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! I HATE TO SEE HER FACE! SHE MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL TO THE MAXIMUM! I DON'T CARE IF SHE,  MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS OR WHOEVER READS THIS! I DON'T CARE IF THE WHOLE WORLD READS IT! JUST GET THE BLOODY SHIT OUT OF MY HOUSE AND LEAVE ME ALONE YOU CONDEMNED, BLOODY SHIT PASTOR! READ THIS FOR ALL I CARE AND GET MAD AT ME FOR ALL I CARE! IF YOU LECTURE ME PASTOR, YOU'LL REGRET IT! AS IT WILL ONLY CAUSE MORE HATRED IN ME! I MIGHT EVEN GO INSANE THANKS TO YOU, YOU DAMN PASTOR! THE REASON WHY I DON'T DO MY DEVOTIONS REGULARLY, MIGHT BE BECAUSE OF YOU! I WANT TO READ THE BIBLE AND DO MY DEVOTION IN A DIFFERENT WAY! AND THE 'FOLLOW-UPS' YOU GIVE ME ARE OF NO USE! I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER A SINGLE WORD! IT'S ONE EAR IN ONE EAR OUT! YOU SAY YOU UNDERSTAND ME BUT, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL! AND THE 'FOLLOW-UPS' ARE UTTERLY USELESS! THERE'S MORE BUT, I DON'T WANT TO TYPE ANYMORE. MAYBE IN THE NEXT POST YOU DAMN PASTOR! SO, DON'T GO THINKING "LUCKILY IT'S ONLY ONE POST!" THERE'LL BE MORE I PROMISE YOU!

Bruno Mars - The Lazy Song [Official Video]

BRUNO MARS-THE LAZY SONG

Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed
Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone
So Leave A Message At The Tone
'Cause Today I swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'

I'm Gonna Kick My Feet Up
Then Stare At The Fan
Turn The TV On
Throw My Hand In My Pants
Nobody's Gon' Tell Me I Can't

I'll Be Lounging On The Couch, Jus' Chillin In My Snuggie
Click To MTV So They Can Teach Me Howda Dougie
Cause In My Castle I'm The Freakin' Man
Oh Oh

Yes I Said It
I Said It
I Said It 'Cause I Can

Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed
Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone
So Leave A Message At The Tone
'Cause Today I Swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'
Nothin' At All

Woo Hoo Ooh
Woo Hoo Ooh Ooooh Ooh Ooh

Nothin' At All

Woo Hoo Ooh
Woo Hoo Ooh Ooooh Ooh Ooh

Tomorrow I'll Wake Up Do Some P90X
Meet A Really Nice Girl Have Some Really Nice Sex
She's Gonna Scream Out "This Is Great!" (Oh My God! This Is Great!)

Yeah

I Might Mess Around, and Get My Collage Degree
I Bet My Old Man Would Be So Prouda Me Bruno Mars The Lazy Song lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/bruno-mars-the-lazy-song-lyrics.html



But Sorry Pops You'll Just Have To Wait
Oh Oh

Yes I Said It
I Said It
I Said It 'Cause I Can

Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed
Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone
So Leave A Message At The Tone
'Cause Today I swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'

No I Ain't Gonna Comb My Hair
'Cause I Ain't Goin' Anywhere
No No No No No No No No No
Ohhh

I'll Just Strut In My Birthday Suit
And Let Everything Hang Loose
Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Yes I Said It
I Said It
I Said It 'Cause I Can

Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed
Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone
So Leave A Message At The Tone
'Cause Today I swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'
Nothin' At All

Woo Hoo Ooh
Woo Hoo Ooh Ooooh Ooh Ooh

Nothin' At All

Woo Hoo Ooh
Woo Hoo Ooh Ooooh Ooh Ooh

Tomorrow's dooms day....so is the next! TTATT

Nooooooo!!!! Tomorrow my cca has a photo taking session and we must wear full uniform!!! nooooo!!!!! I don't even know which badge goes where and how to tie my tie!!!(I know right. What a bad girl guide member....) And the next  day which is a tuesday, my pastor is coming to my house for some 'follow-up' and i did not do my devotion!!!(something christians do) For 4 weeks some more!!!! I'm doomed!!!! TT~TT i shall use my time tomorrow plus tuesday before she comes and do the past 4 week's devotions! I know that's bad of me but....ah....WHO GIVES A DAMN CARE!?!?! And anyway, she was the one who insisted on coming! >:/ How annoying!!!!! and followed by that, i got piano lessons!!! I did not practice for 2 weeks!!!! I'm doomed!!!! I'd be a ghost typing on my blog!!!! And i did not do my theory homework too....uh oh....better do it tomorrow. Anyways, i gotta bear with it and go through it! Ganbatte!!!!

宇多田ヒカル - First Love

Utada Hikaru: First Love

Saigo no KISU wa tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irundarou
Dare wo omotterundarou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii LOVE SONG
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugokida sotto shitteru
Wasuretakunai koto bakari yo

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Watashi wa kitto naiteru
Anata wo omotterundarou


You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii LOVE SONG
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii LOVE SONG
Now and forever..
Ever..

Justin Bieber - That Should Be Me ft. Rascal Flatts

Justin Bieber: That Should Be Me

Mmmmmmm
Everybodys laughin in my mind
Rumors spreadin about this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
Cuz baby I didnt

That should be me, holdin your hand
That should be me, makin you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feelin' your kiss
That should be me, buyin you gifts
This is so wrong, I cant go on
Till you believe
That that should be me
That should be me
Yeah

Said you needed a little time from my mistakes
Its funny how you used that time to have me Replaced
Did you think that I wouldnt see you out at the movies
What cha doin' to me?
Your taking him where we used to go
Now if your trying to break my heart?
Its workin, cuz you know

That should be me, holdin your hand
That should be me, makin you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feelin' your kiss
That should be me, buyin you gifts
This is so wrong, I cant go on
Do you believe
That that should be me

I need to know should I fight for love
Or disarm its getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart

That should be me, holdin' your hand
That should be me, makin' you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feelin' your kiss
That should be me, buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
Do you believe
That that should be me

That should be me (X4)
I never shouda let you go (x4)
Never shouda let you go

Requiem for the God Emperor - Code Geass R2 AMV

Song: Raggs No Chinkonka in English,Japanese's Romaji and Kanji!!!

ENGLISH VERSION:




Through the stars, snow and memories
I’m looking for your footprints
I pray you rest peacefully for all eternity
This is the middle of the dream

With wings that still can’t fly, I run up the hill
When I stray from the path I close my eyes and keep going

Through the stars, snow and memories
I’m looking for your footprints
I pray you rest peacefully for all eternity
This is the middle of the dream

Someday everything will return to what it was
The one place on top of the sky
is peacefully within you
Trusting the future after the light in good hands

With the wings that still can’t fly, I run up the hill
When I stray from the path I close my eyes and keep going

Through the dreams, love and emotion
I’m looking for your footprints
Leaving behind the light of eternity
with your unwavering wings

May you have eternal love 




ROMAJI:


hoshi ni yuuki ni kioku ni
kimi no ashiato sagasu
douka towa no yasuragi
koko wa yume no tochuu de

osanai tsubasa de sakamichi kaketeku
michi kara hagurete kono me o tojiteku

hoshi ni yuuki ni kioku ni
kimi no ashiato sagasu
douka towa no yasuragi
koko wa yume no tochuu de

itsuka subete modorite
sora no hate hitorikiri
anata ga matsu yasuragi
hikari no ato nokoshite

osanai tsubasa de sakamichi kaketeku
michi kara hagurete kono me o tojiteku

yume ni ai ni kokoro ni
kimi no ashiato sagasu
towa no hikari nokoshite
yurugi no nai tsubasa de

towa no ai o anata ni


KANJI:


星に勇気に記憶に
君の足跡探す
同化永の安らぎ
此所は夢の途中で

幼い翼で坂道駆けてく
道から波ぐれてこの目を閉じてく

星に勇気に記憶に
君の足跡探す
同化永の安らぎ
此所は夢の途中で

いつか全て戻りて
空の果て一人きり
あなたが待つ安らぎ
光の跡残して

幼い翼で坂道駆けてく
道から波ぐれてこの目を閉じてく

夢に愛に心に
君の足跡探す
永の光残して
揺るぎの無い翼で

永の愛をあなたに 

07-Ghost - Raggs Requiem (Teito Version)

Here's the song!!!!!

I Skipped A Day Of CCA....(there IS a reason for it....)

Castor,Frau and Labrador: " SAY WHAAAAAAT!?!?! YOU SKIPPED IT?!?"
Castor:" You BETTER have a good reason for it!"
Me:" LOLS. Get outta my blog post and GO BACK TO THE CHURCH!!!" *chases them out* "phew....these characters sure are a handful....sigh....so here goes." =^_^=

*takes a deep breath in*

I skipped my CCA(club) as i wasn't feeling so well and i have to prepare for my trip the next day. I already informed my senior about it and she said okay. I told my friends but they say "i hate you!" in a joking way cause there's no fun without me. <_<" So too bad.

When i went home,i ate macdonalds while watching television.I took a bath after that and "BOOM" goes my insanity!!!! I went haywire and played a particular music video over and over and over again! O_O"

I than took out the stuff i needed for my trip and asked my maid to help me pack......too lazy here.....lols.

Mum came home, in a bad mood, sees me playing the computer, ignores me, goes up and comes down after two hours and still sees me playing the computer. She scolds me,"YOU VERY CLEVER AH? YOUR MARKS SO GOOD AH? GOT PRACTICE PIANO OR NOT?" nag nag nag.....and she made me practice....i vented my anger by scribbling on paper.....and i can't play when the person who made me angry is sitting behind me!!! It'll raise my anger!!!! But i tried to cool down(which did not work) and PRETENDED to be fine with it and played......sheesh.....what a mood-changing day!!!

Castor:"so that's what happened......i see...."
Me:" Har har har....yeah you see." >:/

Shut The Hell Up!!!!! >:(

Would my mum just SHUT UP! Cause hearing her scold me is gonna break into billions of pieces!!!! >_<
I just bought the things i love and would use it!!! And she scolds me! I didn't ask my grandmother for the money!!! It was grandmother who gave it to me and said to take it!!!! Now she asks me to return the money using my pocket money!!! >_< And all the pocket money i have,comes from grandmother anyway not mum!!! =_=" So it's like take from grandmother allowance and return the money she gave me again!!!!! What the hell!!!! Grandma's the one giving me the allowance!!!! And not my mum!!! So it's like a circle. HERE'S THE CIRCLE:
GRANDMA-ME-GRANDMA-ME-GRANDMA-ME(and so on...)!!!!

How logical is this?!?!?! It's repeating again and again!!!!! >:O

I can't take it!!! >:(

I can't take it anymore!!!! Seeing my younger sister who is like 10 years younger getting beaten by my mum! Just because she doesn't want to practice the piano. >_< I understand that we have to practice. But playing an instrument is to have fun and loving it. Not playing it by force! >:O When i was young,my mum treated me very well. Not like my sister who gets beating so often. At that time when i was the same age as her,my mum never shout or beat me! >:/  And she expects a 3 year old young girl to be a genius!?!?! That's ridiculous! It takes time to learn! It's not like you have to straight away know it! >_<" I wish my mum would realise her wrong! Piano is to have fun with not to be forced to play!